back at Heikos pc :) Mine is at our friends house but he is ill with bronchitis and I don't want to catch that :) and next week is full of doctors appointments (check for diabetes and checking my kidney :( but at least I'm pain free at the moment), so he will come over the week after that.
The weather is dull the last few days and that resembles my mood. Last weekend I got a call from my mum, that my uncles conditions (pancreatic cancer) got worse and that they had to take off one of his legs. Since I could not sit in the car for more than 5 minutes without getting really severe pains in my back, Heiko and I decided to visit him this sunday, hoping that my kidney would get better (it is...).
My sister and my mum visited him last sunday and he did not want to live any longer, the aches and pains where just too much. He was ready to go. Last thursday, he passed away.
On one hand, I'm sad, having lost another member of my immediate family to cancer (cancer 4: my maternal family 1 ->me) on the other hand, I'm happy that he does not have to suffer more than he had in the last year after the diagnosis. Chances where high, that he would have lost his other leg too.
I know, that pancreatic cancer is hard to detect, but most other forms of cancer aren't. My other uncle died of gullet cancer and he had detected knots in his body early. He might live today if he had visited a doctor early.
I'm alive because I went to see my ob-gyn early. I go to my regular check ups! I have my skin checked every other year. Get yourself checked regularly if you are a guy or a woman. Having fought cancer and having lost 2 of my uncles to this dreaded illness I can tell you, that both is not fun!
A ray of light is the second babyblanket I'm knitting:
and that the movements of the twins are getting more and more. This feeling is beyond words...